January 2010
49 posts
Winning Streak
Three days this weekend. Two have gone in spectacular fashion, and I’m cautiously optimistic for a hat trick tomorrow.
Friday started on the right foot with a fun interview that I think went well. I really like that I get excited for onsite interviews in my field — it’s one of the things that makes me think I might really be in the right place. Anyway four questioning...
Onsite
Interview in 40. This should be interesting.
Confidence Level
I want to say “everything is going to be fine.” I might qualify it with a confidence level to say “I’m 99.99% sure everything is going to be fine.” But then I think, if I’m in your situation, 0.01% is far too high a probability that something might be wrong. So I have no clue what to say. I hope everything is fine, and I hope there’s a good explanation...
Ninja Scroll
There’s a quote at the beginning of Samurai X that I absolutely adore. I would probably have posted it at least once but I fear to spoil any part of the OVA for a dear friend of mine. In any event lately I’ve found myself wanting to watch this again, except my copy is lent out to the same friend. So today I finally decided I’d order a second copy, and this time I’d get...
Pardon Me
I would write more, but I know you don’t care to read it, so I’ll keep it short.
This is the last. I’m walking away because that’s what you want; you won’t hear from me. You know how to find me if that day ever comes.
Parks and Recreation
Where the hell is Matt?
If you haven’t seen the video, you’re wrong. I initially heard about this phenomenon through Know Your Meme, one of my favorite YouTube series. I guess I’d watched one of the videos, but apparently not this one (the last of three right now). I think there’s just something about watching people having good, old-fashioned fun that’s heart...
Doki Doki
I read an observation once, I forget where, about communicating emotions. Among other things, it contrasted Japanese and western styles. Basically it said that the western writers focus on the emotions they feel, whereas Japanese focus more on the physical response. Westerners would write about the feeling of love while the Japanese might talk more about the beating of their heart etc.
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Please Don't Mind
You’re probably worrying about me; please don’t. I never wanted anything but the best for you, and I hope you’re on a path that will bring you great happiness. I hope you don’t mind too much that I can’t share that happiness with you right now.
Woke up today, thought “I’m not even supposed to be here today,” turned off the alarm and went back to sleep. Still needed a coffee when I got into work. Still not sure what I’m feeling or why.
heavy sigh
A Human Adventure
Feeling human.
They say it is better to give than receive, and lately I’m beginning to see it for real. I was talking to a friend, who was expressing the desire to help a friend “feel human again.” Due to their particular circumstances, it basically meant spending quality time and generally being available. Maybe I’m just not in that place, but I didn’t exactly...
One day I hope you’ll recognize yourself as the amazing person that the rest of us see every day.
Choking 'Game' →
I used to do this for a short while when I was very young. It might have even been in 8th grade. I should have probably known better, but I never really saw it as dangerous or anything. I don’t know that many people really knew that I did it, but yeah it was a little fun but definitely out of boredom (not sexual in any way) and for whatever reason (music? math? games? programming?) I...
“A man that studieth revenge keeps his own wounds green, which otherwise would...”
– Francis Bacon
One day Solomon decided to humble Benaiah Ben Yehoyada, his most trusted minister. He said to him, “Benaiah, there is a certain ring that I want you to bring to me. I wish to wear it for Sukkot which gives you six months to find it.” “If it exists anywhere on earth, your majesty,” replied Benaiah, “I will find it and bring it to you, but what makes the ring so...
#38
You don’t have to apologize to anyone for taking time to yourself. As your friend I want to grab you and shake some sense into you, and tell you not to suffer in silence. But I know it’s not something that can be forced.
Just know that, however long it takes you to open the door, I’ll be waiting on the other side, along with all the others.
Then And There
I liked you, a lot. I would often think that I’d gained a new (or renewed) understanding for the line “losing your mind for the sake of your heart.” I tried to play things cool, but there are several people who can attest to the mess I really was over you. I never got to a point where I would say I was in-love with you, but I saw real potential.
When I look back on this year...
“We’re so helpless
We’re slaves to our impulses
We’re afraid...”
– Feist - “So Sorry”
Not Today
I was stopped at a traffic light yesterday when I noticed about 4 squad cars at the 7-11 on the corner. I had no idea what was going on, but I figured with that many cars there might be a gun involved. I couldn’t help but consider the possibility that a stray bullet could take me out at any second.
I’ll similarly have fleeting thoughts when I’m on an airplane, that I might not...
“Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear - not absence of fear.”
– Mark Twain
completelysilent:
I feel soooo good right now.
No worries, things are going to be ok.
WOW.
Best I’ve felt in.. weeks.
Yay. :D
There’s not enough happy posts on Tumblr, imo.
Just wanna say that right now, I feel in control of everything, and really happy.
I’m so excited to see what happens in my life in the next few months, etc. :D
I would say welcome back, but I suspect you...
“There was once a dream that was Rome. You could only whisper it. Anything more...”
Deliberate
I was thinking a lot on the plane back from Phoenix. I’d been planning on thinking about work, about where I wanted to be and where I wanted to go. Of course I began by asking whether I really wanted to go anywhere, and why.
I’ve mentioned before that I’m always suspicious of my own motives, and in this case I started to ask myself “Do I simply crave change? Am I...
I could listen to you sing all day long
completelysilent:
And today begins.
About to go and get my key, and claim my bed, and my new place in teh dorm.
Oh em gee.
*****
THIS WHOLE SITUATION IS MAKING ME FUCKING NERVOUS.
UGH.
/anxious
I got there, claimed my bed (put new 400 thread count sheets on teh bed), and looked around.
It’s so fucking depressing, the entire room/dorm/etc. Just empty, and blah.
Oh well.
This whole thing...
Know I'll burn for you tonight
Catch Up
Haven’t written in quite a while. I don’t usually care if I lag but it’s been about two weeks so I’m sitting down (now that I finally got WiFi at the house today) to get back up to speed (or at least begin).
I guess back up to the 14th, a good friend of mine was feeling a bit sad due to being sick and having to stay at home while she was missing out on an event she...
18 Days
Start the countdown.
“If you take home anything
Let it be your will to think
The more cynical you...”
– The Offspring - “Something To Believe In”
“I think about you all the time
But I don’t need the same
It’s...”
– Goo Goo Dolls - “Name”